you,

i will stay away.. avoid that which i want. seems like a good idea right now, might not be, who knows. they say go after what you really want and yet i cannot. what i really want is fleeting. what i really want is most definitely not what i really need. it's unrequited - this i know. and i was looking for that but to me, it would not be unrequited. it would make my heart hurt in the best way. and thus i will not think anything of it.

take different paths for the next couple weeks. ignore. repeat. ignore. then go home. the end.

home is the end and how many things i wish i could say is the beginning. i will skip the beginning. what i want to say will not come out of my mouth, to save everyone. in the words of newton faulkner: "you do so much that you don't know."

what am i even worrying about? vague isn't necessary, this won't be seen.

(say anything. please.)