re: jacob young from cheatem county

she asked her why
and she wished she could tell her, but she says

it's just a phase
it can't be real

but i know the pain you feel
i feel it in me, too
i carry it with me every day

when i thought things could be so simple
i never realized they could be so hard

(maybe that's the good in extremes)

keeping you a secret was never something i wanted
but it is something that i will do
if it means that you
will stay

a promise of a secret

i revisit you
several times a day

sometimes when the fake silver lining
grasps the edge of the concrete

sometimes when the heart beats
and i am moved with its presence

sometimes when i wonder about
the palpitations of blood streams around me

but mostly, i revisit when the sun
is draping crudely across HER shoulders - wondering -

if your presence is so all-consuming
so all-knowing so all-powerful so all-loving

why is it that

i feel like i am traveling a desert
with no mirage in sight

wandering hopelessly
through the tunnel

when i never
see a light