i just thought i'd go ahead and say this

coach, girls, everyone.

i'm so sorry for what i put you all through last year. i wish i had had the decency then and the security in myself to be able to say that i needed to get away from the situation, but i never did. i only worsened it by staying.

i was so hurt and burnt out by the end of the year that i didn't tell anyone. as wrong as it was on my part, i felt like i was doing the right thing. i never once played the game that i should have played while i was there; never once. i was so high strung and uptight about everything (which is so far from my personality that it scared me) that my playing suffered, my life suffered, and i suffered.

i am glad that you all did such an amazing job this year. it weighs heavy on my heart but at the same time i feel like my life and your lives wouldn't have been the same without the experience. thank you for all your kindness and for everything that you helped me through, inadvertently or not.

and to bk: i am so proud of you. despite everything that you've had to go through, you've excelled. you are the epitome of strength and someone who can persevere through every obstacle put in front of them.